Day 5 – Freedom

posted by Momo Fali on November 5, 2013

One of the greatest things about my son’s PDD-NOS is that he doesn’t care what anyone thinks, of course this is also one of the worst things, but I’m choosing to stay positive.

Right now he is sprawled out on the floor singing songs from The Prince of Egypt. “Deliver us out of bondage and deliver us to the promised laaaaaaaand…” There is something to be said for being so shameless. Not that he needs to be – his voice is quite good – much better than his mother’s, anyway.

Though I’m not jealous of his struggles, I’m jealous of the freedom he is afforded. He does things I’m not brave enough to attempt. The other night at his cousin’s wedding, while I hid from the videographer, my son was dancing like there was no one watching. Of course, everyone was.

Dancing Machine

this was taken at another cousin’s wedding. the kid gets around.

It’s great to see him oblivious to the criticism of others and doing what feels natural. If he wants to sing, he sings. If he wants to dance, he dances. I’ve always said that I’d love to skip for exercise, but the idea of people turning their heads in disbelief holds me back. As does social media. I’d need a little of his carefree nature to actually skip down the street. A LOT of his carefree nature, actually. And maybe some liquor.

My son is not confined by the word “normal.” This child, crooning about slavery on my dining room floor, is not actually bound at all.

It kind of makes me want to sing.

    Comments

  • Melisa


    I LOVE HIM.

    And you and I are TOTALLY skipping for exercise when I come to see you next. Mark my words.

  • vicki


    One of your loveliest posts yet my dear!!!

  • Karen


    You are such a good momma xo loved this 🙂

  • Toni


    I love to skip!

    But what I want to say is I only was around your family briefly, but I WAS with you all (so I feel I can have an “outside looking in” perspective) I thought Adam was extraordinarily well behaved. And having 2 grown daughters, 4 Grands 12 siblings and all the nieces /nephews ..and so on I should know.

    The main thing that Adam impressed on me was how VERY VERY smart he is. Health problems or no health problems I feel he is way ahead in so many ways. The kid is sharp, he is super sensitive and picks up things before most adults do. You all have done an amazing job, would you adopt me? Maybe Ali would share her room?

    XO

  • Shannon


    I absolutely adore that picture. It captures him exactly as you describe him.
    I have actually skipped down the street to my parents house (0.2 miles) but only because my daughter said I wouldn’t make it. I nearly died of exhaustion and the need to pee.

  • Piper


    I <3 him.

  • Liz


    I love this post, THIS MUCH!!!

  • Mare


    What a great kid! He’s so happy in the picture. It’s odd – sometimes people with the most difficulties are the most secure. maybe that’s God’s compensation. Beautiful post.

  • meeshie


    To be unfettered by what society might think of you. It’s a lovely idea. Maybe we all have some lessons to learn from your son.

  • Wendi Aarons


    Wonderful. I truly love that picture and remember when you posted it before.

  • Momo Fali


    My daughter said I was cheating by using an old picture. I told her to stop reading my blog.

  • Meleah Rebeccah


    That is possibly THE GREATEST PHOTO – ever taken – in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!